I decided to come out to my family and friends as transgender at 15. At the time I didn't really know what impact that decision would have on my life, but I knew I'd been in the wrong body for as long as I could remember. I didn't quite have the words to articulate my feelings until I found a YouTube of someone transitioning. I realized there was a medical term for the feelings, and that I too could transition to the gender I identified with — I was born a boy, but now I could become a girl.
Luckily, everyone I told was extremely understanding and supportive. My parents took the time to educate themselves on the issue and did everything in their power to make my transition as easy as possible. I was incredibly fortunate to have this foundation of support, as one of the greatest setbacks that transgender teens face is being shunned by families. Many in fact, end up homeless or attempting suicide.
Another frequent setback is the cost of transition. It's a very expensive process, and unfortunately, unlike in other Western countries, healthcare doesn't automatically cover most (or any) of these costs. (Some insurances and employers do, however, and the Human Rights Campaign website has an excellent resource that can walk you through the process.) This makes the prospect of transitioning seem unachievable to a lot of people struggling with gender identity. So how much does it all cost exactly? It depends of course on the desired transition, but here are some of the most popular treatments and procedures, and what they've cost me so far. It should also be noted, however, that no one has to undergo any of the below in order to identify as transgender. This is simply my journey.
Hormone Therapy: $1,500/Year
Deciding to transition into the opposite gender is not a decision that should be taken lightly. I underwent two years of therapy despite knowing in my heart that I was making the right choice. This process was one of the most rewarding stages of my transition. It felt liberating to have a healthcare professional validate my decision and help me understand my feelings on a deeper level. Unfortunately, professional therapy costs thousands of dollars a year, and most trans youth simply can’t afford it. Once my therapist and I decided that transitioning was the right decision for me, I began hormone replacement therapy, also known by its nickname: HRT. It's one of the most powerful tools a person transitioning can have at their disposal. I was initially put on anti-androgens to halt my body’s production of testosterone. This stopped my male puberty right in its tracks, and prevented the development of things like facial hair, excessive muscle, and a deeper voice. Three months later I was placed on estrogen, which was super exciting for me. Soon thereafter my body began to change—my skin became softer, my fat began redistributing itself to my breasts and hips, and my voice started changing. You can’t even begin to imagine how rewarding this process can be for a transgender teenager. Sadly, this incredibly crucial transformation also comes at a price. I had to visit my MD once a month to have my hormone levels checked, and to renew the prescription for my medication. It also costs a whopping $1,500 every year (at least). Once some people complete their gender reassignment surgery, they stop taking this medication, but I'm still on it. I started when I was 16 and am now 25, so that's about $13,500 so far, and I plan to be on HRT for the rest of my life.
Gender Reassignment Surgery: $30,000-Plus
Nearly two years after beginning my therapy and hormone replacement therapy, I was ready for my gender reassignment surgery at 18. In order to have this surgery, most doctors will require proof of at least two years of therapy, as this is not a reversible procedure. They also need to be certain that you're fully aware of the decision that you're making and all of its consequences. For me, it was one of the happiest moments in my life. There are really no words to describe the excitement and anticipation I felt leading up to surgery. I will say, however, that I cannot stress enough enough how important it is to do your research before choosing a GRS surgeon. Only a handful of doctors in the world are truly experts in this field, and choosing the wrong one can lead to catastrophic results. This step in the transition is very expensive, and the average cost is upwards of $30,000. In addition to the actual procedure, you also have to pay for travel costs and hotel accommodations if a good physician does not live in your neighborhood. But in my opinion, this is a small price to pay for a lifetime of completion. I feel incredibly blessed that I had the opportunity at such a young age, and the opportunity to live my life in a way that feels true to me, in part, because of this surgery.
Facial Feminization Surgery: $25,000-$60,000
A year after having gender reassignment surgery, I went back under the knife for facial feminization surgery — a set of reconstructive procedures that alter typically male facial features to bring them closer in shape and size to typical female facial features. In my personal experience, this is the most life changing surgery of them all. As a young transgender woman, nothing was more important to me than being able to "blend" into society seamlessly. It's not only crucial for vanity reasons (what girl wants to look like a boy?), but also for safety reasons. Being trans often subjects you to discrimination, bullying, and physical aggression.
It's so important to members of the trans community that our outward appearance and inner self are in complete harmony. Speaking from personal experience, although not often, I did occasionally come across some level of bullying prior to having FFS. It's simply a lot easier to be singled out and targeted when the aggressor can identify you as being trans. But again, there's a price to pay for the procedure. Board certified surgeons that are qualified to do these procedures will charge anywhere from $25,000 to $60,000 depending on the amount of work you get. Mine cost about $30,000, as I only opted for the procedures that I thought would benefit me the most at the time, which were forehead and jawline contouring.
Breast Augmentation: $5,000-$10,000
Having a breast augmentation as a transgender woman is an entirely personal choice. I know many who have chosen not to, and instead let their hormones do all the work when it comes to breast development. I chose to have surgery because I wanted a fuller bosom, and my hormones didn't help completely on that front. This surgery will cost between $5,000 and $10,000, and it all depends on the surgeon you choose, where that person is located, and what type of implant you want. Breast augmentation was by far the most painful of all the surgeries. In fact, after all the other procedures, I usually only felt some level of discomfort. When I woke up from this one, it was like an elephant was sitting on my chest.
Looking back at those two years of my life, from about 16 to 19, in which most of my transition took place, I often tell friends that I didn’t feel any less "female" prior to having the surgeries. And I think this is very important. Transitioning simply brought all the puzzle pieces together. I never had a waking moment where I thought in order to feel or be female, I needed to undergo multiple surgeries. My brain, heart, and soul felt 100% female prior to transition. Oftentimes, after surgery, my relatives would ask if I felt any different. My answer was always the same: no. I've always been the same old Elle.
I chose to undergo these surgeries to better my life experience, not to "become" female because I already was. Nowadays, I really only think about the process of transition when I am filming a Youtube video related to it. My journey into the person I am today would not have been possible if that 15-year-old me hadn't stumbled upon someone else going through the same thing. I hope I can help others in the same way.
For more information on transgender individuals and some of the issues and hardships they frequently face, check out the LGBT organization, the Human Rights Campaign.
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